:/

Ok, its 7.33 pm and I’m hungry but I decided that I want to rant a bit here before I get pissed and busy dating my assignments. It’s already week 13 and I’m still rushing assignments, preparing presentations and haven’t revised for tests and seriously, when is this ever going to end? This whole semester is so packed and if compared to last year, it’s just too overwhelming. I guess the bright side is, I’m done with 2 presentations and a test for this week and I’m totally off with Critical Thinking and Speech Processing class. I should be doing my essays and prepare for tomorrow’s two presentations plus Dr Toshiko’s Phonology class but guess what, I’m slacking off again. I’m tired of discipline or whatever crap and the weather these days are rubbing my moods away from my sensibility! Prom night is going to be this Friday and frankly, I’m not anticipating it. I’m more into the mood of going out to eat on Thursday. As I was lying on my bed this morning, I stared at my ceiling wondering where God is. I’ve always knew that He watches over me and routinely, I did my prayers but deep down, I know that I’m far away from Him. I was too busy admitting that I need to seriously consider slowing my paces and pray earnestly. I’ve been avoiding Him, as how I’ve avoided people that I care. I thought I should just move on, because life eventually leads you to new things, new people and new perceptions. I guess I just misses God a lot, it’s like there is this empty hole inside that cannot be filled by anything, or anyone. I have no intention of getting too emotional but I subconsciously been doing it a lot and there is this shadow that I don’t know belongs to whom that I cared, so much that it hurts.